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We haven't been talking for almost half a year. Well maybe we do, but I can say its less than 10 sentences. Your presence in my class bothers me, I know I'm acting weird, and you are too. Both of us are weird so that makes us not talking to each other. This miserable feeling has been haunting me since the beginning of the year, and it won't get out of my head. How much more time do I have to take to get over it? It's already been half a year! 

心之忧矣，其谁知之？其谁知之？盖亦勿思!

I really hope I could be like what this line says. Too frustrated and decided not to think about it. BUT IT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME. WTF

Never once I felt so devastated for such a long period of time. Maybe it's because I'm too young? Idek.