Under the Hawthorn Tree

I read this book a few months ago in school's library. Initially the story was kind of boring,but then it became so sad at the end. 

Not to say it's boring, it's the way of how the 70's conservative Chinese fall in love and date. Perhaps one should date before watching this movie.

It's basically a love story between a girl whose background is 'not really decent' at that time, and a boy who comes from a military family. They've gone across so many obstacles and when they could finally come together, the boy had leukaemia and died at the end.

A typical love story(BUT IT WAS SO TOUCHING AND HEART WRENCHING) but according to wiki, it managed to earn a box office of 1.6 bil. 

Poster portraying the 70s of China.

A few months later, I saw the movie. I can finally feel how heartbreaking their relationship was. Like the book, the beginning was mediocre. But there was a cute scene as the chemistry developed.

So this is when they're about to cross a river, the boy offered his hand to the girl. The girl, of course, was shy, refused to give her hand. The boy then had to pick up a branch to let her hold on it. As they cross the river, the boy's hand got closer and closer and then woop their hands meet and finally they hold hands.

The next favourite scene of mine is when the girl, Jing Qiu heard that the boy, Jian Xin is suspected to have leukaemia. So she made a tough decision to make a visit to the town hospital. As expected, she found him there.

Sadly,the hospital rules forbade outsiders to stay overnight with the patients, and Jing Qiu, of course is chased out of the hospital. But she just stood outside of the hospital and stared at the window where Jian Xin stood there. Both of them waved to each other and insisted that their other partner should leave first. The scene ends when Jian Xin agreed to go first(but apparently he was hiding behind the wall).

Jian Xin peeping through the window to see whether Jing Qiu has left.

She did not. She sat outside of the hospital's gate overnight just to be the first to enter the hospital the next day, to see him.

Neither of them wanted to make their other partner worry about them. 

Another heartbreaking part is when Jing Qiu is going to leave Jian Xin after her trip to the hospital. They were at each ends of a river and could only give each other an air-hug because during the 70s, the society didn't like the younger generations to "date too early"(Jing Qiu was only 17) so they had to date secretly. Even a hug is also too much to ask for.

The sadness is unbearable.

People normally would thought that the ending of the film is the saddest part, but in my opinion I don't think so. Maybe it's because of the actress, Zhou Dongyu is an amateur, as this is her first time acting; I thought that her crying looks a little unnatural. However, I do like her beauty. 

I think she really is a beauty, not the typical oriental beauty like Fan BingBing or Tang Wei, she gives people a clean and calming impression. Her eyes is not the same boring double eye-lid, hers is the special single.  

Even makeup is unnecessary to enhance her beauty. She's simply pretty in her own way. Her smile is especially stunning that it could melt you.

Of course, the director gave us a tear-shedding ending:

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Chemistry was a roller coaster today. Well, at least it's done already. 

今日在另一个block上课，特意走另一个楼梯看能不能撞撞他。

没什么的，只是虚荣心和怨怪心驱使。

心里总会预料到失望，不过上帝让我如愿了。

他在同另外几个同学说话，我若无其事路过，我不敢往后看，一怕窘，二怕让人起疑，三怕our eyes meet, that will be really awkward. 

在我的perspective里我真的觉得我不喜欢你，在男女方面。不过我会做很犯贱幼稚的事情，我不知道为什么，可能是我不甘心，不甘心你交朋友时喜新厌旧，不甘心我们以前日日说话，直到现在我们象陌路人一样，见到面，有时连打个照面都觉得多余，生疏。

自己的妄想总是美好的，我妄想你对我念念不忘，只是象我，不愿搁下自尊与你和好如初。

我从来不信星座，到现在也是。或许它有少许根据，不过仍不可信，那些字只会让绝望的人对号入座，安慰自己。我曾看过一篇关于金牛座的女子，细读之下，发现原来自己就像极里面所说的性格。

个人认为这个是人的个性问题，并非星座使然，在这世界上虽然每个人都是不一样的，我符合了某些文中的性格，却不是一模一样，说明这篇文很general，大约什么人都能对号入座几点吧。

我重自尊，要拉下脸同你和好，不是没试过，只是你不愿专心听我想表达什么。

我宁愿什么不满什么委屈都不跟你说，我宁愿等你自己醒过来，哪怕时间长，哪怕你永远不知道。

窗外刚下完雨，天色阴柔，房间里阴暗，只有电脑荧幕亮着。

没戴眼镜看东西的感觉有时也是舒服的，模模糊糊的在窗前欣赏雨后风景，模模糊糊的打字，心里既踏实，同时又模糊，我不知道我要什么。

短暂的模糊是舒服的，时间一长，就是迷茫了。